| And our final message is from a long-time fan who worked a bit on This is Not a Conspiracy Theory. This is a midlife transition that leads to triumph, although an unexpected one. Kirby, I hope this longer than intended letter finds you well. You are a wellspring of inspiration for so many in the creative community. I had the good fortune to collaborate with you briefly on a chapter or two of This is Not a Conspiracy Theory and as someone who had early aspirations to be a filmmaker or special effects artist in my early 20s, being able to contribute to your production is certainly among the highlights of my career. You're a great storyteller. I started in 2004 translating my knowledge of CAD design into civil engineering marketing proposals and presentations. By 2007 I was regularly shooting video pieces and helicopter photo/video for strategic campaigns across the US. In 2008, the recession hit and I was overhead that was quickly dispensed of. After 8 years with the company, I decided that it was time to start my own business developing media for AEC companies (Architects, Engineers, and Construction). It was not exactly my passion but I had connections and momentum in that direction and decided to give it a shot. At the time, I had a partner who helped shoulder the cost of making that leap. I was extremely naive about business but in my 30s, I felt that being in the corporate system amounted to being in daycare and that I was far too old to be told what to do while having my profit robbed from my labor. My income was unstable at best. I had good months and bad months. The company that let me go was one of my clients. Then a former coworker that moved to another company looked me up for services. My reputation and network slowly expanded but after 14 years and working with the largest and most prestigious brands in that industry I was no better off financially for it. In 2012, I was fortunate enough to work with a company that invited me to work on a documentary project. The doc itself was nowhere near enough money to live on and in order to stay with the project and get the final credits, I decided to remain an independent contractor. I lost everything. My house. My relationship. My credit. Money. I had an irrational, Moby-Dick-like obsession with seeing the film and its 150 page historical companion book through to the finish line. I gave more than anyone asked or was reasonable to give. Most people would not have done what I did, but I did it. Today, I cannot say that I regret my decision. In January 2016, we premiered the documentary and went on to win numerous awards at festival. I was worse than broke but I did what I set out to do. I completed a film and designed a companion book which was probably as close to Ken Burns as I would ever get. It was not my original goal of directing or visual fx but I learned enough to know I probably wouldn't ever want those jobs. You need to be obsessed and work 16-20 hour days for 3-4 months at a time with a desire to prove you are the best. It was not the quality of life I ever wanted to create. In my 20s, after seeing the Matrix and other films that impacted me, I just thought it sounded cool. Vfx artists are notoriously underpaid and directors give their entire lives for film projects. In order to be that obsessed, it would have to be a story that I was passionate about the world needing to hear. Few stories impact me that way. Last October, after 14 years as a rogue corporate castaway, I entertained the idea of becoming an employee once more. What I didn't realize during those years of self-imposed poverty, strain, and unreasonable expectations was that I had developed a resume unlike anyone else's in the industry. Despite only having a high school level of education, my experience and successes blew away most of my competition. I always wanted to do something altruistic with a non-profit. Something that moved the needle in a meaningful way for the social changes I longed for. I had really high expectations. I have to say those 14 years in the employment desert beat that idealism out of me. I was now a master storyteller that did not care what ends my services were used for as long as they were used and I was compensated. In October, I was hired as a Lead Visual Designer at a huge, global company. I negotiated a pretty high salary based on my experience. It is the most anyone in this position has ever been paid but in the last 9 months, the marketing and sales team only want to work with me. The level of service I'm accustomed to offering my clients goes far beyond what other designers can deliver in the department. As of now, I'm slated to join the C-suite at the end of next year. I'm going to be in the top tier executive class of a giant company. It still blows my mind. Anyway, this is not a brag. I just wanted to tell you that your experience and what you have created is invaluable to someone. I don't know how long I will do this but I am grateful for the second life this job has given me. All of my debts are paid, I'm saving more money than I ever had in my life while also not needing to worry about spending it either. I go out when I want, buy whatever I need for the family, and have fun with money left over every month. It's surreal. Next year I will use the surplus income to start testing new company ideas with the goal of beating my own salary so that I can quit again or at least be a highly paid consultant. In 2020, my father had a blood infection that infected two of his heart valves and his brain. I saved his life by dragging his belligerent ass to the hospital and nursing him back to health from home over the next 8 months during COVID. The reason I went back to work was to take care of him and my daughter as a single father. It all worked out beautifully. I know in the depths of my soul that if it worked out so well for me and all the stupid little shit I did that is insignificant to most, that it will happen for you too. You have created some amazing, thought-provoking, and far reaching content which very few people can do. You are special. Your gifts are needed in the world. If there is anything I can do to help you get to where you want to go, let me know. I will do whatever I can. I love what you have put into this world. Your heart is genuine. You are very thoughtful in a world that lacks thought more than ever. I appreciate you. All the best, Matt |