βThe Art of Embracing Awkward Moments: A New Guide for the Socially Clumsyβ
The other day whilst walking down the street with a friend, a woman in a passing car waved frantically at us. I immediately waved back, mirroring her franticness with a matched zeal and passion of my own. And then I realised I didn’t know the person at all, my friend on the other hand did, for it was his neighbour:
“Do you know Sue?”
“No”
“How come you waved?”
“I … don’t … know”
These things can be so damned awkward.
I recently exitted a supermaket weighed down by two very heavy shopping bags, one in each hand, and as I made my way across the busy car park, I tripped against the kerbstone. In order to avoid falling over, I had to run frantically forwards, lurched over in a desperate attempt to not drop my bags of shopping. My heart raced, bottles clinked angrily and I cursed as I could feel my face flushing whilst I staggered by a group of people idly chatting. The group of people stopped chatting mid sentence, unashamedly giggling as I stumbled past like some 1920s Buster Keaton comedy stunt man.
And once I needed the loo before boarding a plane in Helsinki, so I rushed to the nearest Gents just as they announced boarding. I needed to be quick. Unfortunately, in my haste, I forgot to lock the cubicle door and a young Finnish man walked in on me, and for a moment ours eyes met, me sitting down on the toilet with my pants around my ankles, him, stood upright and fully dressed (somehow the height disparity made it so much more shameful). Needless to say I stayed in there until I was sure he had left before I re-entered the departure hall and took my place in the queue for boarding. As I waited, I kept running through that embarrassing scenario over and over again, feverishly berating myself for not locking the bloody door. Oh God the shame and embarrassment, but I tried to pull myself together and told myself at least it was a stranger and I will never have to see that Finnish man again. Except I did, because he was in fact sat next to me on the flight to London which felt to me like it took about a week.
These are all examples of awkward moments many of us suffer from, some of us seemingly more than others. The reactions in my case are always similar – quickened heart beat, flushing of the face, cussing under my breath and a lasting feeling of deep, deep shame.
I would like to avoid such moments, but they seem to be part of me, always have been, and as I get older I seem to become ever more accident prone, raising the already high likelihood of more shameful embarrassments to come.
So, what to do? How about if, instead of cringing, instead of being a mortifyingly shamed victim, what if I celebrated these delightfully awkward moments that make me who I am, moments that make me uniquely me?
Awkward Moments could then become the spice of life rather than shamed secrets. Yes, that’s it …
The key is perhaps to own and embrace such awkwardness. When I realise I’ve fervently waved to a stranger, I just keep on waving, at another different, imaginary car which contains my imaginary friend:
“Do you know Steve?”
“No”
“How come you waved?”
“I was waving at my neighbour Sue? At least I thought it was Sue?”
“Haha! That was my mate Steve you numpty, you should have gone to specsavers!”
And as I run across the supermarket car park chasing my bags, I tell the idle onlookers to move out of the way for I have a ticking time bomb in my bags which I just removed from the supermarket:
“Run! This bomb might go off any second from now!”
*** People scramble to their cars and drive away in rushed panic ***
And perhaps next time a Finnish guy walks in on me mid ablution:
“Come on in! There’s plenty of room in here for two!”
*** Finnish man runs away in panic and can’t believe his bad luck when he realises we are seated together. He ignores me for the entire flight to London which now feels to him like it takes a week ***
Yes, I shall embrace such moments and seize the initiative, leaving them confused instead of me. I shall walk away with my head held high and a smile on my face, leaving them staring blankly, trying desperately to make sense of what just happened to them.
I shall go forth and fumble spectacularly, a skilled and practiced fumbler, embracing each moment, still underlining my own flawed humanity, but this time with a smile on my face.
